Today we have been asked to write about the things that illuminate you, guide you home, which are often out of your control, your reach or are simply the way they are since you know of yourself. Write about those things that shine like they have never been touched a hand, yet they are so sacred.
I know what its like to be lost
Knowing deep inside
Nowhere
Is there a place you belong?
I felt it when I left you,
After so many months
Suffering the illusion
I could make it right.
Failure was not what I was
Denial a way of life.
Those months, maybe years
Sleeping separate
First on the futon
Then in condescension
Allowed me the spare room.
Constantly, daily
Interrogations of behaviour
Reasons for my dysfunction
Hours of tirade
Undermining, destroying
Till in the end I sold my soul.
That act I hated
For then I became a no body,
My soul no longer mine.
No one has to live that way
Downcast,
A nothing.
So I journeyed back
Found safety in the childhood home.
I set out to find myself
Discover the me I used to be
A man of worth.
Where had I disappeared to?
My light was my desire to find me.
There was too much to live for
Life was good, could be good
Would be better I knew.
Today I am strong
Know my place
A quintessential man
Understanding who he is.
Written for: http://mindlovemiserysmenagerie.wordpress.com/2014/10/23/tale-weavers-prompt-31-the-light/
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Powerful powerful writing Michael, I was deeply moved by this, by your resilience wow
Thank you Yves, this was a challenging prompt.
I can imagine it was, you really put yourself out there
Well when you get to my age you do accumulate a few stories.
Yes I would imagine (I have my share) I look forward to reading those stories Michael
I was late but I did write to both prompt 77 and Pandora’s Box (combined the prompts)
“Well when you get to my age you do accumulate a few stories.”… Well, but not everyone can relate them that well. Powerful insights… glad for the happy second beginning.
Thanks so much Debi, appreciate your kind comment.
A very touching and relatable write, thank you very much for sharing it!
Thanks Oloriel, good prompt to write to.
You write powerfully and passionately about encourage to change, to leave behind what holds you back, to find your way. You are an inspiration — this is probably at least the fifth time I’ve said that.
Well thank you phylor, you are very kind to a man with his own set of flaws and foibles.
And, you are a very kind man.
I think I should forward your comments to my ex, not sure she would agree. But thank you, hope you are having a good weekend.
There is such a flow of motion as your words bring us along with you in this journey. Beautifully written and sensitive – encouraging as well Michael. Just wonderful how much strength you offer by sharing as you do. 🙂
Thank you Pat, the strength is also in the giving, if that makes sense.
Yes, Michael – it makes absolute sense. 🙂
Sometimes we can return to our childhood homes after our hearts have been ‘broken’ –
It is an accumulation of all those stories that make us who we are and maybe we can consider our own bodies our homes were ever we settle.
Learning life lessons can be a rocky road, but eventually we hope to settle comfortably knowing that we at least can understand ourselves with forgiveness – once we do that we can live with joy.
Flaws and foibles make us who we are 🙂
My heart has felt this.
But – when it comes to it – it’s all about finding ourselves.
So – nice to see that light! 😉