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This week’s prompt: ‘heel/heal’
As you get older the healing process slows down, cuts, scratches and abrasions just take a bit longer to heal. The physical will always heal eventually it’s the psychological that take a life time if you are lucky.
I have been told on numerous occasions I should let my past go and for the most part I think I have but some things are ‘festering sores’ you think they are under control and they suddenly break out rising to the surface and taking all attention and activity.
When this happens I now days know and I’m aware and for the most part I am able to control how I feel.
So often I have sat and tried to analyse why this happens to me and I think I know the answer. For no matter how much time goes by, how much talking goes on, how many resolutions are reached there remains one lingering sore within my psyche.
Never has one of my perpetrators said sorry. They are not the sort of people to do that. I know that, but it gnaws at me that they can’t see past their own precious world. Rather they still see most things as my fault. They will never see their role and responsibility as other than centred on themselves.
Now I will never exonerate myself from all blame, relationships succeed on the backs of the two people involved and I am far from perfect. In the day to day I accept I can be difficult and often disappear off with the fairies.
But I have grown to understand the person I am.
I have also grown to understand the need for others to take me as I am. My children do, they are wonderful examples of tolerance, they are also experts at requesting my help and assistance when they need it but I am happy doing that because they express gratitude.
As I age I am aware of this ‘sore’ within me but I don’t intend for it to rule my life.
It may never heal but I now know how to treat it.
Written for: http://lindaghill.com/2015/01/16/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-january-1715/
Morpethroad 
As they say, knowing there’s a problem is half the battle. I do believe that as we age we become more aware of what we’re all about. The wisdom to accept it and then do something about it is what sets us apart from those who will never change.
Yes I agree, being able to step back and see what issues are and make informed decisions is half the battle I think. Thanks Linda, have a good evening.
You too, Michael! Or is it daytime there – I’m never really sure. 😛
Saturday morning, beautiful and sunny about 33C today
Ugh. It’s closer to -33 here. Trade you!? hehe Enjoy! 🙂
The hot weather wears thin after a while I can tell you, today seems not as bad as other days, but its early yet.
Yep, we get our share of 40 and 50 degree humidity in July and August… which is when I’m avidly wishing for the weather I’m getting now.
We Canadian’s are never satisfied. 😛
Australian farmers are like that its either raining too much or not enough.
Being understood and appreciated for who you are is such a luxury. Even it is only one person…lucky if it is more. I also feel blessed in that way with Husband and kids who love me as I am. Many people don’t have that. 🙂
That is so true Hope, thank you so much for your comment.
I truly enjoyed reading this post, Michael. Many times my head was bobbing and I think some wounds heal differently, you are right, when those persons have not apologized…I do believe we heal but some scars are more fragile than others.
Thank you Cheryl-Lynn I agree, those scars we can carry they don’t carry us.
But some heal badly and get nicked easily…you hve inspired me, yet again, Michael to write a second post. My first post inspired by you was a tale weaver.
You flatter me. But if my words inspire you to write then that is wonderful.
A beautifully honest post.
Thank you so much for reading and your comment.
A thought provoking post. I find I do most of the apologizing since it seems the better path. Not that I am always at fault but it does take two to tango.
The ‘better path’ only works I think for a little while until you get pissed off from knowing you are the only one who ever does apologise.
Yes it’s true