“Like the circles that you find in the windmills of your mind.”
It’s what rolled in my head today as we laid you to rest.
I never thought this day would arrive. Everyone gets sick, you go to the doctor, there’s a pill or some medicine to take. You rest you recover.
That’s the way it’s supposed to go. Isn’t it?
You aren’t supposed to get worse.
More treatments and more hope.
We hung onto that believing that any day you’d come good.
The final diagnosis was too much.
All hope gone.
All we had was time.
Each morning we sat in the sun, held hands, talked oddly of futures.
Mostly mine.
Yours we had written on a small piece of paper, stuck on the fridge.
When the inevitable arrived, we said goodbye,
The fighting, the anger all gone
Just a peace between us
A letting go, and I waited until after you’d gone
Trying to stay strong as you slipped away forever.
Then I fell apart
For two days, I was distraught.
Then I thought what you would want of me now?
So here I am, remembering, my life was so like…
“Round like a circle in a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning on an ever-spinning reel…
Like the circles that you find in the windmills of your mind.”
Written for: https://scvincent.com/2017/07/27/thursday-photo-prompt-sails-writephoto/
Morpethroad 
Poignantly told, Michael. I’ve known how that feels.
Thank you Sue, just where my mind went today..
Mine still goes there sometimes…
Absolutely sensitive and very well written Michael. Really stunning.
Thanks Pat seemed the place to go
Made me tear up. How difficult it must be for someone to experience that type of loss.
You can only imagine can’t you, but some folk do have to deal with such things…
Well, each spouse will have to at some point in time, one will go before the other. Unless they have an accident together.
I’ve seen that happen to. A work colleague was involved in an accident where her husband was killed, it took her a very long time to recover both physically and mentally. You wonder what might be worse…
You know, it’s extraordinary. The 1st showcasing the prologue.. The verse being the epilogue.. Hmm.. A tale hangs in between.. Any chance of putting expression(I mean write) in those words, ‘remembering, my life was like’.. If you do.. Tell me.. It will be a great novel…
Thank you for the encouragement.
Very touching story of endings and mane of new beginnings. Well done.
Very touching story of endings and mane of new beginnings. Well done.
Thanks sir fandango you are very kind
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Means twice as much 😂
I loved this Michael, and so remember the song : The Thomas Crown Affair I believe.
It’s heartwrenching when you lose someone you love. I don’t know if it’s worse when you know when or if it’s out of the blue. With the former, at least you have a chance to say goodbye. A beautiful response to the prompt.
Thanks Di….either way its a tough place to be in..
You’re right of course. Grief is always hard.
That was so touching… painful ..
Even My take on this prompt is painful as well..
https://throughmyheartweb.wordpress.com/2017/07/28/thursday-photo-prompt-sails-writephoto/
I’ve seen that before…a spouse staying strong until their love goes, then they fall apart. Well told, Michael.
Thanks cathy
Painfully good, Michael…
Thank you Jael.
Most welcome always.
Painful story, well told.
Thanks so much Frank..
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Poignant (K)
Thank you for taking the time to read my words
You are very welcome.
Beautifully written, and brought a tear to my eye.
Thanks so much Judy..
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Wow.
Been there, too.
Yes I believe you have…thanks for stopping by.
This is a very deep piece of writing, Michael. An excellent response to this prompt.
Thanks so much Robbie, greatly appreciate your comment.
My pleasure, Michael.