It was all tears and fears that first day
I checked in I thought you were checking out.
Excitement slipped into trepidation
‘Where had you come from?’ I heard you ask.
‘I’ve always been here just hanging around
I’ve been your boy you my girl
Nothing has changed,’ I tried to say
‘Just physical circumstances, I’m still me.’
‘But you’re taller then I thought!’ You said
Looking up into my eyes you saw
I know you did the tell tale sign of my humanity.
What if when you got to know me
I was a monster, a fiend in disguise.
Then the wounds would be real, the pain for no gain
I’d be the one propping up a corner
As you bounced off the other three
I’d be holding steady until there was no point
And you waved as you kissed me goodbye
Through the boarding gate and into the sky.
But I don’t, didn’t ever want any of that
So I hold all of you, so close to my heart
It feels as if it might well burst
As I look at you and hear you say
‘Come here my boy, I’m your girl
Lets make this work, I hunger for you
I want so much to spend my days
Just with you, tears some day, fear some days
But always you, my constant, my rock.
Take me hand my precious boy
There’s a path I want to share with you.’