My daddy said walk away son
He’d discovered my illicit love affair.
Said she’ll ruin you son
You’ll regret the day
You ever said I do to her.
Your mother God rest her soul.
Would be turning in her grave
To know you have sidled up to that
Drop to your knees boy
Grab your rosary beads
Lets pray for guidance
Lets beg for common sense.
I should have listened and walked away
But in those days I knew everything
There was nothing I didn’t know
From politics to women to cars.
So I said I do
Moved to the country
Had a bunch of kids
Thought this was the life
But soon learned otherwise
When the abuse became real
The expectations unreal
Day and night turned to drudgery
The traumas multiplied
The torment increased
I was worthless, as husband, lover and father.
I cringed when I should have walked away
Withdrew and hunkered into my shell.
My only outlet between midnight and dawn
When she snored, the house strangely quiet.
My rage lay unabated and dormant
A terrifying thought should it sneak out
And I became as was jailor was.
The shackles firmly tightened
There was nowhere to go.
Whatever step I took was like digging my grave
So I stayed the fool with the broken heart.