I first saw you on a crowded platform waiting for the 3.28 train. It was a Monday afternoon and the crowds were mainly school kids on their way home and people like me wanting to get home as early as I could.
I was immediately taken by your beauty. Tall, ash blonde elegantly dressed and very aloof from all around you.
I was taken in by your sharp facial features, your high cheekbones, your eyes behind expensive eyewear and your tall straight demeanour.
You were wearing a black business suit so I assumed you had some job in a bank or someplace but from the get go I began to speculate about who you were, what you did and where you might live.
I followed this pattern each afternoon when I discovered you caught the same train as me. I would stand a little away from you and taken in the beauty I found mesmerising.
As it turn out you alighted at the same station as me and many an afternoon I walked up the steps to the station exit a step behind, or in front or sometimes beside you but never would I be brave enough to speak to you.
I noticed from the start you had the most beautiful long thin fingers and your ring finger was adorned with striking white gold.
I felt ashamed that I was fantasising about a married woman but that fact never took anything away from the image I had of you.
One afternoon as we crowded onto the train I took a seat behind you and noticed you had a notebook on which was written: “Why should I stay?” You have started to list things but I didn’t/couldn’t read what you were writing.
I felt sad you were having relationship issues. I know it happens all the time but that didn’t lessen the sadness I felt for you. That afternoon I sensed heaviness about you, and when we reached our destination and we were climbing the steps I nodded in acknowledgement of you and you smiled back.
At the top of the stairs we parted once again, you left and me right. I felt warmed by your acknowledgement and went home feeling I have achieved something I didn’t think I could.
But I never saw again after that day and I often wonder as I travel to and from work what happened to you and whether or not you found some resolution and happiness.