“If your heart is a volcano,
how shall you expect flowers to bloom?” – Khalil Gibran
I sit and look at the paper. My hand shaking. The news no one wants. Pathology says, there is nothing more to do. My world shatters despite my positive intention to resist the bubbling enemy within.
Momentarily I am stunned into acceptance. Resolutions form as I question resolve and attitude.
I cannot fight the awaiting eruption but I can shield others from the looming pain.
Flowers will only grow if I not only plant them but also nurture them.
To nurture is to love, to love is be with those who desire nothing else than your presence.
The paper heralds a change but a change the fire never counted on.
My own resolve strengthens; my resilience gathers a momentum nothing will shatter.
fate stares up at me
destiny comes face to face
not yet, not yet, no.
Morpethroad 
This did not show up in my feed……glad I found it. I really love this haibun. Strong and gripping!!!!
Thank you dear blogger Anja. I am so glad that you were ‘gripped’ by my post.
lol Is Blogger Anja along the lines of Dear Abby? Oh wait….that’s not an Australian thing.
You could be on the verge of some thing new there. Hmmmm…..maybe there is a need for a blogger Anja counselling service in blog land.
Dear Blogger Anja my Haibun just isn’t haibunning like it should should. Help?
Lol hmmmm that does seem like a problem that’s been happening lately. Let me see what the problem is and get back to you….in like 1, 3 or 5 weeks. No problem right?
Signed, no time for that now Anja 🙂
oh how very sad this is 😦
Sad but a reality for some. Thanks RM
Agh. Our news wasn’t on a piece of paper but dripped word by word from a consultant’s mouth. I remember sitting in the chair, feeling my eyes widen and widen and saying nothing back – as if by remaining silent, the future could be stopped and hurled far away. Protection mode – for myself and others. ‘not yet, not yet, no’. Absolutely.
oh Freya, my great fear in wriitng things like this is that for some it is too real. Even in my own circumstance I deal with it ok, but in others I feel your pain.
Don’t let fear reign you in. Every day, people are born and die, encounter joy and pain, love and loss. It’s all part of the richness of life. The important part is to keep on feeling, not become numb. I know that good will come of my own recent loss – in fact I know it already has. I used to be buttoned-up kind of person – not any more. That’s a good thing, even if only a small matter, in the grand scheme of life.
To cope and strengthen in the event of tragedy..This is a realistic haibun. well done
Thanks Padmini, I appreciate your comments.
So powerfully presented, especially the ending haiku. Puts me in a place I don’t want to be and makes me feel it strongly.
Thanks Eric, it’s a place none of us want to visit let alone live in.
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