This tarot card is about control and release, surrender and sacrifice of old patterns of thought and conditioning, which yields a deeper, broader, understanding and perspective, and choice.
I know I’m at my wits end
So much is weighing on me
The expectations of so many.
My hopes and aspirations
Seem insignificant
In the face of what’s required.
It’s my ability to give in
Succumbing to pressure
When things go wrong.
I worry that I will give up
Accept the blindness of a life
Controlled by others
Dictated by what ‘we always did’
That ‘we have only you and I’
‘What would I do without you?’
But I am stifling, suffocating
In the mire of a mindless monotony.
I have every thing I need
In a material sense
And nothing to satisfy
My physical sense of me.
So do I endure?
Do I step outside my comfort zone
Take on a new perspective
Or do I crumble and die?
My heart says one thing, my brain,
Governed by guilt
Pushes me to stay and ride it out.
Live unhappily, no fulfilment,
Loveless with no parole.
What a paradox my life is
What happiness there is over there.
Morpethroad 
What a very well explored piece Michael 🙂
I think you’ve explored the elements of this card so well – choices, indecision, surrender —> to the routine and stable/solid/secure – or giving in to pre-determined expectations and control by others – or to consider stepping outside comfort zones. And of course, the idea, is it really “better/more” on the other side of indecision and the current situation.
You’ve explored the paradox issue very well – and I’m “forced” to read this piece several times, letting it sit as I think on the words and meanings.
thanks for sharing and playing along with the writing prompt 🙂
And this is such a stunning line: Loveless with no parole.
Very strong and moving.
“‘What a paradox my life is/What happiness there is over there.’ Can you give ‘yourself’ parole to over there for awhile?,” she asked. “See what love offers.”